It's almost exactly like the feeling when you see a road sign from a train window, or when you smell the air after rain... the only proof of time is our memory - which explains why goldfish are timeless, and have no need for digital watches (splash proof upto 5 metres)
"every passing second is a chance to turn it all arround"
--- a future cat
Basically I need to find a way to relax, I've spent far too long being stressed and restless; and this constant unrest is causing me bad health and depression. I need a target in life, an aim, because at the moment it seems I am just waiting, waiting for things to happen… things that make me happy.
The best way I can see to do this is not to rely on anyone, and to just head off by myself and try and re-make me away from anyone I know. My reason for this is that to make changes while friends & family are watching is quite difficult, to say the least.